This is My Story, and I'm Sticking To It
Updated: Oct 22, 2018
Thank you so much for being here- for taking time out of your busy day to visit my site! I sincerely know how precious and few free moments are and I appreciate you sharing yours with me! The idea of putting a little more of myself out into the nutrition and fitness world (which is big, and awesome, and sometimes confusing, and downright deceiving) has been bouncing around in my head like a ping pong ball for SO LONG. I knew I wanted to be doing and giving more- but couldn’t exactly put my finger on WHAT I was “supposed” to be doing. Then, this past year kind of rocked me with random health issues that affected not only the way I felt, but also the way I looked, the way I trained, my self confidence and my overall image of who I thought I was.
In all honesty, the title to this post could actually read: This is my story, and after dragging my feet, complaining, whining, wondering, struggling, resenting, questioning, retreating from, and even down right denying it; I somehow managed to examine, reflect, recover, learn, grow, stretch, appreciate, understand, and show gratitude for it- and after ALL of that, am sticking to it! Doesn’t make for a catchy post though!
This was not an overnight endeavor. It took me a while (like almost a year) to get from point A to point B...and I wasn’t a super happy camper through most of it, nor did I get through it on my own. I would love to say that I’m the bomb coach who was able to step outside of my stubborn self, allow my intelligent, rational self to prepare the perfect game plan, then hop back in and see it magically work wonders. Nah broh- I needed HELP. Like I had to hire my own coach- that didn’t know me, or share the same preconceptions I thought those around me had. Ugh...I used to say to myself over and over “what kind of coach needs a coach?!” I felt like a failure, and little like a fraud. How could I be a great coach, if I couldn’t even coach myself? This wasn’t the way it was “supposed” to be, so there’s no way it could be WHAT I was “supposed” to be doing...could it??
I’ll spare you the very un-glamourous details of my situation, which mostly revolved around gut issues and hormonal imbalances (don’t worry...I look forward to picking them apart piece by piece in future posts!) and get to the point. After reluctantly making lots of changes to my nutrition and training, using daily trackers, compiling a mini GNC in my medicine cabinet, being poked and prodded for bloodwork, and walking out of more than one useless doctor visit, I started to see the light at the end of the tunnel. During this time I also started listening to every mindset, coaching, nutrition, and wellness podcast I could. I read more books in those few months then I did in years, and I learned a lot more about myself in 6 months than I had in a lifetime. Mostly, I learned there was a lot more to me, than my Fran time or my bodyfat percentage...a lot more than I had really thought, or given myself credit for.
Ultimately, the biggest realization I had was that every single thing I experienced led me directly to this space...which is exactly where I am MEANT to be, and now I know WHY. You see, once I stopped trying to make things be they how I thought they were SUPPOSED to be, and started just letting them be...and stopped trying to figure out WHAT I wanted to do, or should do, but rather WHY I was doing something, the answers just seemed to fall gracefully into place. Things I had racked my brain about for months became crystal clear the instant I flipped my thoughts away from WHAT I thought I wanted to WHY I wanted them. A true, real-life “WHY” is so much more powerful than a “want.” You can “want” a cute pair of jeans, or six pack abs, or to lose 10lbs, but in reality, it's truly the confidence you crave when you strut out of the house on date night with your spouse, or a night with your tribe, that feeling of totally loving yourself- how you look and feel knowing you committed to yourself, did the work and accomplished something, and proved to yourself you could do the thing you set out to do. That is WHY you’ll crush it in the gym, and work your butt off at your job to afford the jeans, the gym membership etc.
This is a simple example, but the “want” isn’t the thing that gets you to take action...the “want” is just a thing...a fleeting post or selfie...a byproduct if you will. All of our “wants” and “supposed to’s” are causing us to run in circles or jump on the latest fad, leaving us once again frustrated, unchanged and empty. The magic is in finding the “why” then attaching your "want" to it. It gets a little messy and uncomfortable digging up those “why’s” sometimes though, which is why not everyone gets there. I want to challenge you to embrace the mess and not settle until you find your “why.”
So, what’s my WHY? Well, after experiencing all of the ups and downs of the past year, and really all of my years in the fitness industry and still managing to land on my feet, I feel an overwhelming need to give back, and help others that are struggling or confused or just need a lil direction like I did. I want to ask the hard questions, and use my experiences to help people find their best self. I want people to know that it’s ok to not have all of the answers and need to ask for help. As a matter of fact, I also learned that the best coaches have coaches! Despite what social media likes to tell us, there are better solutions besides taking the latest pill, powder, or other fad to get what we think (or what media tells us) we want.
I LOVE helping people. It motivates me to motivate others- to inspire others to see what they are capable of if their “why” is strong and meaningful enough. Yes, I’m a total nutrition nerd, and love experimenting with new recipes, and macro combinations, but ultimately I want to be able to help as many people as possible find success on their own health and fitness journeys.
So, when you come to me for coaching (with the hopeful assumption that I haven’t scared all of you away) be prepared to answer the hard questions...the deep, thought provoking questions that make that little spark, fear, burn, or fire light up inside you. The questions that will ultimately lead you to becoming the badass rockstar you were meant to be. That’s what I want for you- but only your why will get you there... Then I’ll ask for your food log! ;-)
I hope I can inspire, educate, improve, laugh, make mistakes, learn, and evolve along with all of you...because this thing is just starting! A whole new shiny chapter is ready to unfold. Our stories will be written whether we choose to acknowledge them or not. I’m challenging myself (and you), to own them! Stop playing along in a supporting role, doing only the things you think you're supposed to be doing. Examine your life and identify what you want to share with the world, then take action to become the author, editor, and main character you were meant to be!